The Raw Blog : The Beauty in Me

This blog is to show how even when things are not always as clear as they should be is just to enjoy the journey of discovering who you are and how much growth and elevation you’re having. Their is no guide to life and even the guide books that were left are only testimonies of others witnessing the person going through them and what they told them. What about the questions that weren’t answered that everyone is wondering about? What about real life situations that people are experiencing and they don’t know how to move forward or even believe in a future for themselves? It’s all apart of gods plan, its authentic and we all going through it so let’s just go through it together and individually at the same time lmao.

With me restarting this journey again it is really helping me see that I can’t do sh*t perfectly and that no matter what, you can have some fuck ups and honestly bihh that’s just life. We can’t really change the inevitable but we can learn how to adapt and make it work for us. Waking up one day and understanding that damn I want something different or yearning for that fire or passion, definitely can cause you have mental breakdown especially when you don’t know how the hell to do it lmao. The beauty in that though of not knowing I feel like it’s what is needed. Wake up and smell the roses bihh you can start a brand new life, find a hobby, try a new food its not a scary as you think , being in control all the time takes work in itself it feels good to let go and say fu*k it. That’s why you’re physically tired because mentally bihh it’s so much you tryna control lmao the remedy is simple but It requires more faith and less fear. We need more of that in 2023 dammit.

The dating phase is about to be funny a hell because bihh my as* loves to stay inside watch my shows, work, maybe shake some as* on a Thursday or Wednesday then do it all over again. Honestly I just feel like it I want someone to talk to and relate to, not trauma bond bihh but definitely see what I can learn from them and how they see life, but I feel like everybody just wants to fu*k and find get rich fast schemes to pay they bills and maybe buys some drugs which I ain’t mad at it, but I feel like I just want more. My life has been crazy enough from my wig getting caught on my crushes door handle and sliding off mid kiss to dealing with a n*gga who got me pregnant and burnt me at the same time bihh. Double homicide. My life has seriously been crazy and fun to come this far I literally don’t regret anything lol it just it is what it is and plus now looking back on it that sh*t was funny as fu*k.

When your alone I feel like you discover so much cool shit like bihh who knew I enjoyed sitting here writing this damn intro, bihh me? For this long an hour and a half have had to past by and my ADHD approves of it too? this is a win. brain starts to realize I been sitting here writing and now slowly getting distracted lmao okay Im back guys and yes that really happened. Moving on, being in your head actually isn’t that crazy when you kind just let the thoughts flow without taking ownership of them like if Im walking down the street and I see a crying baby and I receive a thought that says aww look at the baby, so cute and then the next thought is fuck them kids I just let it run lmao. This is the realest shit is ever gonna get, ALEXA, play “The Real Slim Shady”. The sunken place ain’t so sunken when you embraced your darkness. I get with being alone you start to see all the bullshit you did or went through but its just a memory now good or bad just embrace it and a little pinch of sex fantasies ain’t gone hurt.

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